Time : 3:55 PM, Place: Bench Room, Work : Nothing, Mood : congruent to Hell , synonym of doomed..
Well , Franking, I dnt wanna think about the sameSo, This is my life, even after completing studies, umm.. if parents dont ovrburden me to persue for MBA, I am here, in bench , doing nothing, well, dat cant be termed as nothing, yeaah, I m blogging, Thatz good, I dunno, but may be that is inbuilt in me to become nostalgic in ,u know, regular intervals, may be coz, the past life was much more interesting, or may be, I m yet not ready to face change in my life,yet not ready to leave the cocoon I hav been habitual of, after being through the best phase of my life, guys, no1 wanna even think abt that, no doubt, college life is , but , the best part of almost every1s life. So , After being through the best part of my life, and after spending more time in bench that I had spent in my entire Mysore training, Life definately doesnot look to be dat fascinating anymore. Let me put you back by a few years, although I am not that old to say the same....:)This is Vivek, or as my Accent instructor says, to begin with, "Thank you for calling LEVEL 3,I am Vivek, How may I assist You?", Gosh, yeah, I guess, Now that is not that bad as it already sounds for an SE..My life has more been synonym of a roller coaster ride, not coz of the action part of it, but rather coz if the instability of it, being son of a govt job holder and having to go to new places, and calling new places my home , having new friends , n new school has been part and parcel of my life. Although that made me , umm, as in campus interviews we mugged it up as "flexible or adaptible with change", whatever, I got some very nice friends, and lost some gr8 frnds in the process too.I was never a brilliant student, I u wanted to know my rank, safest bet would have been float fmyRank=(no. of students in class)/2.0;Then came the college life of Noida, that completely transformed this countryside guy fr good.after those 4 years in bliss, I am now back to square 1, in infy Pune. Thinking about my place here, and wondering, that could it ever exist?. Being nostalgic sometimes can be a great feeling, but it could hurt a lot sometimes, as if the weapon you unleashed to kill ur pains have backfired on u. One of my friend often quotes- Live in present coz thats the only thing on which you have real control on. but still, I love to be in past, the memories that come flashing in your mind whenever U r in need of them. If we compare our mind with google searh engine, than we can find out the efficiency of the same, it doesnt take even a zillionth of the second to give in the live feed (audio as well as visuals) of the past, and it doesnt need indexing too :-)Jokes apart, as england progresses in its innings and my stomache is literally starving , My memoirs for the first day are supposed to be on conclusion. So folks, cya next tym, arrnd same tym, if i still enjoy the bench, as I am for past 3 months.
Thanks for ur troubles goin thru the crap
chao, adios, take care..:-)
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Life - A Puzzle within
Hi friends, this has been a long gap since I filled up pages of the blog. A lot has been changed, the 4 letter word LIFE has such large spectrum of definations within it, I had never before expected the same. Thinking about the LIFE of the disgrunted homeless in home people of Sri Lanka(who fear to call themselves tamils anymore), or the people in NWFP in Pakistan, who are helpless to extent that they had their head shaved off just because they had doen a terrible crime against sharriah by listening to songs. Or Life of fellow Infocians, who were having a seemingly job for past 4-5 years, but with just small mail from HR, their life devasted, and they werent even allowed a day to atleast say a simple SAYONARA. Dasvedania seems to be a different ball game when it comes to Infy policies.
Anyways, what does this 4 letter word imply to us, normal middle class Software Engineers, That remains a puzzle for me at large. With people uncertain about their future, with a middle class man unsure about what is going to happen tomarrow, Life certainly is having a last laugh, taking each and every person for a ride.
With people appearing to smile, and later on we realize, that was just a aversion (shell) to hide the inner pain of the sould who wants help, support, and reassurance. When life is cheaper than death, When it is not polititians, but barbarian and universally acclaimed terrorists rule over us and show their strength by literally making one of the biggest so called democracies fall at their toes. This wasn’t any inadvertant or unexpected thing, people say it was long hatched ballon that had been in very exitance for it to blow up. The problem could be many, I wouldn’t like into delve into them, but the LIFE certainly seems to be taking a backseat in the given scenario.
We laugh, smile, have fun, spend “quality time” with near and dear ones,feel like possessing world in our pockets,, but suddenly it seems that it was just an illusion that has now vanished into thin air, with we having left with nothing more than a dreamy soul, having been overburdened by our own expectation, we feel ourselves as so weak, so fragile, as if our sould crying out for help, for support, for someone we can shout at, with whom we can cry our hearts out. I often feel that a human being is perfect and doesn’t need anyone else, but in these volatile times, LIFE does seem to be much better with someone rather than without someone.
Thinking about someone, who that someone might be? Wao, that is a zillion dollar question. And well, That might sound as the craziest of the answers, I think that someone can be anyone. It can even be some unknown person whom we don’t even know, and It could be someone whom we have known forever. LIFE certainly does tricks us into so many complexities. Just a 4 letter word, a mere four letter word can be so unwinding, so disturbing, so pleasant and at the same time, so hurting at times, That is something, I can never realize, what I can do at best is just to try to understand, what I want out of it, well, technically as I am just a pawn of the same, So it must be the otherway around. So I, like numerous people would do the same, would fall in line, and let LIFE dictate what is in store for me. Coz I know, that would be for best. I just wish my assertion beng true. Am enjoying life, or rather being led by LIFE. That is Life for me.
Anyways, what does this 4 letter word imply to us, normal middle class Software Engineers, That remains a puzzle for me at large. With people uncertain about their future, with a middle class man unsure about what is going to happen tomarrow, Life certainly is having a last laugh, taking each and every person for a ride.
With people appearing to smile, and later on we realize, that was just a aversion (shell) to hide the inner pain of the sould who wants help, support, and reassurance. When life is cheaper than death, When it is not polititians, but barbarian and universally acclaimed terrorists rule over us and show their strength by literally making one of the biggest so called democracies fall at their toes. This wasn’t any inadvertant or unexpected thing, people say it was long hatched ballon that had been in very exitance for it to blow up. The problem could be many, I wouldn’t like into delve into them, but the LIFE certainly seems to be taking a backseat in the given scenario.
We laugh, smile, have fun, spend “quality time” with near and dear ones,feel like possessing world in our pockets,, but suddenly it seems that it was just an illusion that has now vanished into thin air, with we having left with nothing more than a dreamy soul, having been overburdened by our own expectation, we feel ourselves as so weak, so fragile, as if our sould crying out for help, for support, for someone we can shout at, with whom we can cry our hearts out. I often feel that a human being is perfect and doesn’t need anyone else, but in these volatile times, LIFE does seem to be much better with someone rather than without someone.
Thinking about someone, who that someone might be? Wao, that is a zillion dollar question. And well, That might sound as the craziest of the answers, I think that someone can be anyone. It can even be some unknown person whom we don’t even know, and It could be someone whom we have known forever. LIFE certainly does tricks us into so many complexities. Just a 4 letter word, a mere four letter word can be so unwinding, so disturbing, so pleasant and at the same time, so hurting at times, That is something, I can never realize, what I can do at best is just to try to understand, what I want out of it, well, technically as I am just a pawn of the same, So it must be the otherway around. So I, like numerous people would do the same, would fall in line, and let LIFE dictate what is in store for me. Coz I know, that would be for best. I just wish my assertion beng true. Am enjoying life, or rather being led by LIFE. That is Life for me.
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